Hi, welcome to the office sir
Please sit here
You're calm right?
Won’t need an officer?

No? The fuck?

Tell me about your past
So I can help, and make it last
Why?
There's no time
We got an hour
So to you I give full power
The floor is yours
Talk and I’ll give you cures

Served 22
I am sure they left
Happy and content
On the Jarro I was bent
My soul they took
Perverted motherfuckers
Gladly holding their kids hands
As they reach
To button up their pants
White I stayed back alone and raped
My anus was permanently deformed & gaped

Begging to understand
the things adults do
In the privacy of their room
Innocent mind had no clue
That it Took two
To copulate
But one demented
To fornicate
Turning the soft
To coarse
Showing no remorse
Crying I stood
Gagged and forced

Anxiety was born
As perversion had won
Depression took root
Gradually spreading from head to foot
Yet you’ll never see me cry for help
Cause that used to lead to the mother fucking belt

I can’t help it, I’m sad
Why?
Because I failed my dad
How?
I was supposed to be the man of the house
Feared and brave,
Yet I hide in my cave, like a frightened mouse
It’s not your fault
It is to me
You were a child, it’s not your fault that you were defiled
But it happened & it lives
It breathes & gives
Don’t you see that if I hadn’t cried
I’d truly need a successful suicide

I sense it take lives
More and more each day
Another one has got to pay
Another soul to rest is laid
Don’t know why it was taken away
But now I just say “I'm not okay”
My skies are always cold and gloomy
As they all ventured deep and through me
And beaming sunlight
Can’t make the pain right
It’s just another memory now
That makes me still have to bow
For so long i made rods hard
That now i cant even lower my own guard
Alone with my dad can be frightening
Not his fault that humanity is built to sin
I look at myself anxious and dazed
Wishing to be drugged so my memory fades
Why speak out when nothing was done
Even now CSUCKY to my aid they didn’t fucking come

Successful suicide
Living cause I can’t decide
My pain causes me to cry
So perhaps I should fucking die…..